First proper steps

For years I have fantasised about making my dream of submitting to a permanent 24/7 Tpe a reality. Yesterday I took the first practical step to make it actually happen in real life and contacted the ethical dom. I had previously delayed due to lack of confidence in my desirability This self doubt is because I feel I may not be physically attractive enough. I've done a lot of work emotionally and physically to improve my appearance clothes and self discipline. And I'm making positive progress. I have no doubt my seriousness dedication and determination to find and live a Tpe will shine through and impress in the future but there is a part of me that fears I will be rejected for my looks. I must get over that! It was amazing to speak to the Boss He has a powerful aura that attracts me very very much. I want to be of service to Him the desire is strong. I feel I'm on the right path I feel warm inside at the prospect of kneeling before Him and giving Him total control Boss briefly mentioned humiliation and it got me thinking. It's something that scares me but I really want it and need it on a cellular level. I crave it and just the mention of it has me thrilled and aroused….Its very much my thing. And if Boss would enjoy humiliating me ….Perfect! I'm determined to make a success of this. To literally let go and give everything to Boss. I know it's what I need and I've always known that. Time to make it happen. Thank You Boss.